I have a deadline looming, which is why I'm sitting here blogging. I like to think that I work best under pressure, although I have no evidence that this is true. This paper is a 500 word essay, not research-driven, so I shouldn't have a hard time, although sometimes shorter papers are more difficult, especially for me. It's always hard for me to keep the word count to a minimum.
My computer, which I bought in 2003, is showing signs of its advanced age. It's slow. "Plate Tectonics" might be an accurate metaphor for my computer's speed right now. Under normal circumstances, I would never even consider drafting a paper in longhand, because my handwriting is just awful, despite my Catholic school Palmer Method training, and because I just don't think the same way in longhand as I do with a keyboard in front of me. But I was sitting on the couch studying last night, with a sleeping four-year-old's head on my lap (he's a little under the weather), and thought that I'd try to get some ideas on paper while I had time and a notebook in front of me. I got a reasonable facsimile of an opening paragraph down, and my two second paragraphs seemed very good to me for a few minutes. "Hmm", I thought. "Maybe this IS the way I should be writing. Who knew? I should stock up on steno pads RIGHT NOW, because this is AWESOME." But for one detail, that detail being that the actual assignment was on my syllabus, which I have saved electronically on my flash drive. When I looked at it again this morning, I realized that my two beautiful paragraphs had absolutely nothing to do with the actual assignment. So back to plan B, which is really plan A, since I really never write in longhand.
I'm beginning to consider thinking about doing some preliminary research into the possibility of just maybe buying a new computer. I'm just that decisive. We're OK financially, but I'm not working, and my daily MSNBC intake has created a Depression mentality that makes it hard for me to consider any non-grocery related purchases. I can get a decent laptop for about $600 (and that's less than half, by the way, of what I paid for the laptop I bought in 2003), but I might need that $600 for inventory when I need to open an apple stand on Georgia Avenue, right? Are any of you feeling the same way? I never used to think twice about spending money when I needed something, so this is a sea change. I think I need a few days away from the intravenous infusion of political news and commentary. I also need a new computer. California might break free and become a free-floating continent in the time it's taking for my computer to catch up with my typing (and I'm not all that fast), and they have enough problems.